Humbly Walking in Grace

I'm finally here at camp. Camp is rad, Camp is cool, Camp is where you all need to be. I'm surrounded by amazing people, all of whom love me dearly. We are in the middle of staff training and just completed the infamous 'Toilet talk'. It is weird being back at camp, it is very different, not sure how to describe anything particular, but it is just weird. As I process I'll inform you. Anyway, Just wanted to let you know that camp is underway and I'm still alive. But I ask you to pray. Emotions are still unsettled and weird things are going on in life. I pray that my heart will be broken for the campers and I will remain vulnerable and allow God to work in and through me.

Ok..snack time...bye.

It is amazing how one event can teach so much. I graduated 3 weeks ago, the day was like any other day, except the weird feeling I had in my stomach. I was blessed with the handful of friends that came over for this special occasion. I constantly was amazed at the thought of people who came from far and near just to celebrate this day with me. But it wasn't until after the ceremony that I fully realized the significance of this blessing. Kristen and Jay flew in from Arizona; Kali, Christina and Sarah drove down from Montana; Miss Karen and Grandma Lawrence took the train down from Montana; and Matthew and Melissa drove down from Seattle, plus many other amazing people who came from the area. I felt loved, I am loved...I don't deserve it, but nontheless I am. All I could do was cry, granted those tears were a mixture of emotions...but I was blessed and all I could do was cry. God chose to bless this special day with the reassurance of love. He brought people in my life to love me no matter what and for me to love them in return. Through these amazing people God repeatedly assured me that not only am I worthy of peoples' love I'm more worthy of God's love. He created me and loves every part of me. How incredible it is to be a child of God and know that he delights in you. So, in just one day I learned more of how God loves His precious children and delights in our joys.

Now it's all over but I still am blessed beyond measure by how God choses to love us and how he has created us as relational beings longing for love in community. And of course everything is still super surreal, I often wake up thinking it was all a dream. But the weird feeling in my stomach hasn't left. I pray it won't.

I leave Portland Friday and after a number of journey's I'll arrive to camp on Sunday. I am ready for another fun filled stretching summer.

Ok, that's all for now. I wanted to post a little something that has been on my heart. I love you all. Thank you so much for everything...God is using you in the lives you touch, to demonstrate the love He offers.