Humbly Walking in Grace

Tomorrow is the day, I graduate. My emotions are still on the same rollercoaster, but I need to seize the day. :o)

Yesterday, I returned from the beach, we had our Senior retreat at this little lodge in Seaside, Oregon. Oh the joys of no structure...the schedule went a little something like this:

10:00am Brunch

11:00-5:45 Free time

6:00 Dinner

7:00 - ? Free Time, Sleep

It was pretty rad to have nothing to do, but relax. A couple friends and I sat outside Tuesday for about 3 hours reading, "James and the Giant Peach" it was rad. But since it was super warm and sunny outside...3 hours is a long time...and a couple of us got burnt badly on the back of our legs. Mine are so red that they apparently match the color of my red basketball shorts. But it was still fun and super relaxing. We played cards upon cards and had a blast. YAY!!!

Well, today I am hopefully going to finish packing my room and hopefully clean as well. I don't have that much more to do...so that's nice.

Also, today some amazing people are coming into town: Miss Karen, Mrs. L, Sarah Phillips, Kali, Christina Jones, as well as Kristen and Jay McGee!!!! I am so excited. I am super blessed that I don't deserved to be loved as much as they love me. But it through the grace of God I am loved and I couldn't have asked for a better way to celebrate this big day.

Ahhhh.........I am graduating college tomorrow!!!!!!!!

As of 2am Wednesday, my college career ended and I graduate in 7 days. I don't really know what to make of anything...Am I excited? Am I sad? Am I confused? Am I frustrated?--I have no idea. Today we had our last official chapel, it was senior chapel. We sang a lot and watched a slideshow of the graduating seniors. I was trying to convince myself that I wasn't going to cry, but apparently I didn't do the greatest job...I have been crying all day.

I have spent the last 6 years of my life here at Multnomah. Other than camp, Multnomah has been the biggest contributor to my growth. I have come a long way... I am no longer that quiet little 19yr old, whose heart was broken into a million pieces with no understanding of hope or trust. I am now 24, I am no longer quiet (well not as quiet as i used to be), and although my heart is still broken, i have been learning the meaning of grace and trust. But I know I am still not done...

God used my time here at Multnomah as a means to understand God's love. For years, my relationship with God consisted of beating him on the chest angrily asking, "why?" I didn't believe God loved me or anyone else for that matter....I wasn't worthy. But God just held me as I continued to beat on him...he held me tighter the angerier I got. Now, I can see that it was through the amazing people he has put in my life...he held me and taught me about his love. We are his vessels and through those vessels his love is seen and made perfect. How amazing is that...I am astonished at the love and care the Lord has shown me, I definitely don't deserve it, but that is what grace is all about.

Read 1 John, its a great depiction of God's love....

"No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us." 1 John 4:12

I am thankful for you all....thank you for loving me SO well.

One more final and a memorization...then I'm done!!!!!!!!

Ahhhhhhhh!!!!

Well, I wanted to post quickly. I need to get to work now though....

bye....

AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! 14 more days!!!!

I graduate in 15 days....15 days that's not too far off. Ahhhhh.......

Well, I just finished my Advanced Writing paper, it's due tomorrow; the grade I receive on this paper, determines whether I graduate or not. We'll see what happens.

Now all that is left to finish up this semester, and my college career are two finals; one due tomorrow and one next week.

This whole gradation concept is so bittersweet. I don't know how to react or how to feel. Do I rejoice? Do I cry? Do I rejoice and cry? I don't know. It's super weird. But anyway...

I think I'm going to make some Mac n' Cheese, before I continue on my study marathon!!!!!

Enjoy, the place where you're at...you never know when it'll change nor where you'll go next.

Today is Kristen McGee's 24th Birthday. Happy Birthday Kristen!!!!!! The Lord has blessed many lives through Kristen and will continue to do so in the years to come, YAY!!!!

I love you Kristen!!!

Haha...Gotcha!!

Many of you aren't familar with Rabbit Day. It's a fun, weird but pointless game. On the first of every month, be the first one to Rabbit your friends and family. It's quite easy...when you see someone just yell, "Rabbit". It's actually quite fun...yet pointless nonetheless. But hey...you have to entertain yourself somehow...

Actually...I have never been good at Rabbiting people so I created "Turtle Day," the second of every month you yell, "Turtle." Okay I know I'm not very orignial but no one said I needed to be. And since I created it, I can get people and win!!! But I still haven't won everytime...I might not be cut out for these games...:(

Well, I can't focus on my paper. I have a huge headache and my ears and jaw hurts also, definitely not a good feeling. I hope it goes away so I can focus on my paper. It's due Friday.

I graduate in 18 days...18 days I can't believe it. I just want to scream, but that would hurt my ears so I won't.

Well, I am going to attempt to focus on my paper some more...

Thanks for reading my random procrastinating ramble...:o)