Humbly Walking in Grace

Things come, things go, but for the most part they are the same ol'. In ones life, change is needed for growth and maturity and to stagger the presence of stagnation. It is so easy to succumb to life, as you've always known life to be, for most of us a routine is what has barely got us through. I know for me it has. I used to have a routine for everything; even on the way I make my bed and brush my teeth. Routine isn't bad, but when it becomes all you know and you're scared to try new things; it's time for a change. Right now, I seem to desire change in every area of my life. I am not satisfied with where I am at and even some days with who I am.

I am about to graduate in 23 weeks on May 19th, I am excited but the notion is a bit disconcerting. Questions continually run through my head at a rate that disables me from processing. It sometime appears as if I am going through a mid-life crisis, but I'm only 24! I have my whole life ahead of me, maybe that's why I am so discontent. For the past 6 years, all I have known has been Multnomah; I have lived and breathed Multnomah. Now, I am about to enter life without Multnomah, I am getting kicked out on the streets, per se, and excepting to find out what life is about.

Maybe, I am afraid that I'll just fall on my face, maybe I'll get so scared that I forget all I've learned, or maybe I won't. Maybe I'll realize that we all fall and get right back up, maybe I'll desire to remember all I learned and strive to learn more. I have no idea what to expect and maybe I don't need to. But what am I worried about, I have 23 weeks, that is a bit of time to figure things out, right? Or maybe not.

I think maybe I'll try to learn what it means to rely on the Lord, we don't need to know what to expect, when we know who to expect to carry us through. But in all honesty I am not sure what that means, but I am sure I'm not alone.
Maybe--I am going through a mid-life crisis. This post was supposed to be a 'Hey, look at my new look' but it ended up being a processing time on change. But, it's good. God is good and I am thankful for His Grace.

So, I had one of the most stressful weeks in my college career. I had to write a paper, but not just any paper, this paper determined my future. How can a paper determine one's future, you ask? It's quite easy, the only requirement for the class is to write this one paper; graduation, sanity, and survival hinged on the paper's completion. After 20 straight hours of sitting in front of my laptop, finally the sigh of relief came, I clicked the print button and out came my life, all 14 pages of it. I am one step closer to graduation (well if I pass). I don't remember the last time I sighed as deep as I did once this paper was done. It was a rad paper, I wrote on the problem in the Church today with marketing Christ and Christianity and the real purpose and function of the Church. It was quite intriguing. But alas, 3:34pm, I marched up with books and paper in hand to turn it into my prof. My heart was leaping for joy, while my brain was begging me to sleep, but then again work always comes before sleep, well at least for this weekend.
Now, bring on the finals, only 2 real finals then I'm done, then I will have completed my last fall semester of college. Whoo hoo!! And here comes Arizona!!!

P.S. I'm going to see Narnia tonight!!! I sure hope I stay awake, I have officially been awake for 32 hours. woah! I need sleep. K...bye.

9 days and counting, I'll be blessed once again with this breathtaking view. Unfortunately this picture doesn't do it justice. Actually, here you just see the sillouete of a cactus, but it's still rad. I never thought a Montanan could ever fall in love with the desert of Tucson, Arizona. And I have, but moreover I have fallen in love with an amazing family that resides in Tucson, Arizona. The Childs, a family of 5, an instrument of God, a source of joy, and my life has definitely been blessed through them. I am so stoked to be able to spend another Christmas with them. Two weeks of blessed relaxion, love, laughter and fun. Everyone needs to experience the atmosphere of the Child's family, but alas, not sure how that would work. I am just blessed beyond measure. I thank God for them daily. This little update is mainly a proclamation to myself of what is to come, I am stoked. And you should be too :o)

K bye, back to the abyss of studies.