A Need for Change...
Things come, things go, but for the most part they are the same ol'. In ones life, change is needed for growth and maturity and to stagger the presence of stagnation. It is so easy to succumb to life, as you've always known life to be, for most of us a routine is what has barely got us through. I know for me it has. I used to have a routine for everything; even on the way I make my bed and brush my teeth. Routine isn't bad, but when it becomes all you know and you're scared to try new things; it's time for a change. Right now, I seem to desire change in every area of my life. I am not satisfied with where I am at and even some days with who I am.
I am about to graduate in 23 weeks on May 19th, I am excited but the notion is a bit disconcerting. Questions continually run through my head at a rate that disables me from processing. It sometime appears as if I am going through a mid-life crisis, but I'm only 24! I have my whole life ahead of me, maybe that's why I am so discontent. For the past 6 years, all I have known has been Multnomah; I have lived and breathed Multnomah. Now, I am about to enter life without Multnomah, I am getting kicked out on the streets, per se, and excepting to find out what life is about.
Maybe, I am afraid that I'll just fall on my face, maybe I'll get so scared that I forget all I've learned, or maybe I won't. Maybe I'll realize that we all fall and get right back up, maybe I'll desire to remember all I learned and strive to learn more. I have no idea what to expect and maybe I don't need to. But what am I worried about, I have 23 weeks, that is a bit of time to figure things out, right? Or maybe not.
I think maybe I'll try to learn what it means to rely on the Lord, we don't need to know what to expect, when we know who to expect to carry us through. But in all honesty I am not sure what that means, but I am sure I'm not alone.
Maybe--I am going through a mid-life crisis. This post was supposed to be a 'Hey, look at my new look' but it ended up being a processing time on change. But, it's good. God is good and I am thankful for His Grace.
